Thursday, April 3, 2008
♥ ......
Been some time since i've wrote something here.. been really really lazy.
i've only got 11 days left to my first paper. =(
and i can't find the motivation to study. i feel like giving up.
looking at my cgpa the other day, i suddenly felt so ashamed of myself.
but yet, i tell myself, i really did tried my best for the past 5 sems.
i'm just not good enough in my course.
to think that even a B is considered one of the worst grades in class alrd.
i really really dun feel like studyin anymore.
i wanna do my parents proud.
i wanna get at least a third class honours. ( forget abt the second, first is out of sight)
but everything seems far from me now.
i think i'll probably avoid convo. cuz i'll be the only one in my course to grad with a PASS.
what's the whole purpose of me being here?
i really wonder...
dun tell me i still have another year cuz it's useless.
looking at my progress and looking at my coursemates,
unless all the smart ones turn stupid overnight,
or harry potter performs some magic and exchange our brains..
my gpa will never hit the number i wanna see.
and yes. no matter how hard i try. it will never happen.
period.
i've only got 11 days left to my first paper. =(
and i can't find the motivation to study. i feel like giving up.
looking at my cgpa the other day, i suddenly felt so ashamed of myself.
but yet, i tell myself, i really did tried my best for the past 5 sems.
i'm just not good enough in my course.
to think that even a B is considered one of the worst grades in class alrd.
i really really dun feel like studyin anymore.
i wanna do my parents proud.
i wanna get at least a third class honours. ( forget abt the second, first is out of sight)
but everything seems far from me now.
i think i'll probably avoid convo. cuz i'll be the only one in my course to grad with a PASS.
what's the whole purpose of me being here?
i really wonder...
dun tell me i still have another year cuz it's useless.
looking at my progress and looking at my coursemates,
unless all the smart ones turn stupid overnight,
or harry potter performs some magic and exchange our brains..
my gpa will never hit the number i wanna see.
and yes. no matter how hard i try. it will never happen.
period.