Saturday, November 3, 2007

i spend this whole afternoon thinking what will my next step be after this whole exchange. I'll be back in NTU fer another sem before my industrial immersion (attachment) starts. The whole thing about working in the office just puts me off. i hate offices, i hate being confine in rooms or maybe even slots like those u find in the library. it's suffocating being there and it's also suffocating wearing formal. i want to be myself but i know its not possible.

i envy friends who choose to go with their dreams to do what they want. but sad to say i din. My parents din force me to come uni, but rather it was my own decision to take this route cuz it seems the only right route to take, looking at sg education system. I could have gone to a poly but i chose jc. i could have gone NAFA but i chose NTU. it's all abt choices and here i am regretting the choices i've made.

I've always wanted to take design/fashion study courses in NAFA, but i din had the guts to go for it. so i had to go thru what every child in sg had to go thru and get stuck in Uni for doing something which i'm not that interested in.

That's the whole thing abt being a student in SG. Everyone is trying hard to get a degree, be it a 1st class or 3rd class.. just get a degree! tt's wad everyone is saying. but in the end it all boils down to 'we are studying for the sake of studying' which is totally wrong. Such mindset has been wif me since i dunno when, cuz it seems like to have a 'future', you need to be studying the right thing and take the right route which many of us doesn't like. so WHY? WHY do all these..

-sigh-

it's so sad that most kids have to go thru it this way. but i guess i'm just a lucky one cuz my parents dun make decisions for me and i'm sensible enough to know what is best for myself. i dun have great calibres to be a great fashion designer so i'll just be a student and eat my humble pie. grad with a proper degree at least and get sucked into the workforce which i dread.

although some pple may say it doesn't matter if u have a degree or not, but come on. think about it. how far can you go without one? what kind of jobs can u hold without one? what kinda of salary are u drawing without one? -crap- slap urself and come back to reality ok! the world is always unfair.

the education system sucks.

the whole degree thingy sucks.

everything sucks.

argh. kill me..